me according to jiigy pop...

jigs aka (ige or jiggy pop) is the creative director of my team. He is nearing 50 but looks and thinks as if he is 30! he wrote this last sept to describe me...

nostalgic...

Saffron blue's nostalgia rubbed in to my system…I am beginning to really wonder where he is and why until now I don’t know where he is and who he is? i am wondering when will i know him or have i known him already? At the same time i can feel the excitement thinking of how we will meet or how he will pursue me!

Since i am a hopeless romantic...i want him to sing me this...

Grow Old With you

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let you hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

isnt it sweet if you're special someone sing this for you and really mean it?

My everyday choices...

I choose not to be angry anymore…
For it will not make be a better person.

I choose to look at the bright side…
And make it my guide and strength in moving on.

I choose to be happy and hope for better days…
That’s the best thing that I can do to myself.

I choose to do things with passion…
For it brings out the best in me.

I choose to live life to the fullest…
For it is my greatest gift to my Creator.

Your Inner Eye Color Is Blue

You've got the personality of a blue eyed women You're intense and expressive - and always on the go You've also got a sweet, playful side - which draws men in

What's Your Inner Eye Color?

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen (false) Peacemaker, first to end a fight (false) Good at thinking up creative dates (true) Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily (somewhat true) Going with your gut instead of your head (true) Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault (true) Good at recognizing patterns in relationships Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count (false) Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love (hmmm...false?!) Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow (true!) Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind (very true!) Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart (true!)

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

this is surprising! hahaha...i couldnt believe this...i should retake the quiz...

You Are Independent Sexy

You drive men crazy with your "playing hard to get act" Except, it's really not an act at all. You're a strong, sexy woman with her own life and interests. And that makes men even more interested in you!

What Kind of Sexy Are You?

hmmmm....

Your Reputation Is: Sweet Girl

While you're well known, there's nothing to worry about. You're reputation is mostly good - as good as any rep can be.

What's Your Reputation?

sweet but naughty!!!

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!

You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

Do You Need a Man?

agree...its better if i have a great guy around...to fix things and run some errands for me... :)

You Are 74% Independent

You've cultivated your own indepedent interests and personal style. But you're open minded enough to also embrace anything trendy that strikes you.

How Independent Are You?

You Are Midtown

You love so many things, you don't fit into any one label. Your city girl persona goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.

Are You Uptown or Downtown?

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

What Do Guys Like About You?

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

How Do Men See You?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Spatial Intelligence

You've got a good sense of space and how the world around you looks. You can close your eyes and "see" images. You have innate artistic talent. An eye for color and shapes, you're also a natural designer. Since you think in pictures, visual aids and demonstartions help you learn best. You would make a good navigator, sculptor, visual artist, inventor, architect, interior designer, or engineer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

what if?...

just heard that you have a special someone now...
im saddened and im wondering what if...

what if you met me before you met her will you find me attractive enough to pursue?
what if we are of the same nationality will our path cross?
what if your relationship don't work out will you be mine?
what if...

burning doll house...

close up of a bldg miniature on fire

this was when the production staffs werent able to control the fire and burn the black backing..

glowing hallway...

This is the hallway of the abandoned building where we had our TVC shoot last weekend...i love the glow of the afternoon sun.

i'm tagged...

okay...okay...i will do this! Anyway its been 2 weeks since my last post...

Rules of this tag:
1. Name the person who tagged you.
2. 8 things about you.
3. Tag 6 people.

kusum tagged me...who am i to resist this sweet, smart & intelligent blogger?! (uhmm...are the praises enough so u would spare me with the tags next time? :P)

8 things about me...

1. i talk to myself... loud enough for others to hear! i do this if im trying to analyze something and not quite get it and i need to explain it to myself (?!)...and if im working on cost estimates...

2. like you kusum...i love kids...i have this strong maternal instinct that's why im sure i will be a mother...hope to be one after getting married but if ever getting married is not possible then i dont mind being a single mom!...im sure my mom won't read this or else she'll freak out.

3. i'm afraid of dogs...even puppies! my housemate has 3 pitbull puppies...imagine my anxiety every time i am in the apartment...i don't know where i got this but im really really afraid of dogs.

4. im intense...i react with great intensity. I have a bad temper when i get mad but im so easy to please at the same time.

5. my favorite color is pink...i love everything in pink!

6. i love to read! i find reading therapeutic.

7. i am collecting pencils just recently...but i rarely use them...they are just in my pen holder!

8. i have a monthly crying spell. there's a time every month that i would feel lonely and i feel that i need to cry without apparent reason...it must be the hormones i guess... :P


people i tag...

saffron blue
ronald
beck
rheah
leah
mish...sabi mo magbloblog ka na kaya umpisahan mo na! :)

Rainy days…

A strong typhoon hits the city and it has been raining since last night. This morning I was contemplating if I will report to work or not. Since I am a work addict I went to office besides there is no electricity at the apartment anyway. Fashionista as I am…I told my officemates that I came here despite the storm just to display my trench coat and knee-high bronze boots! (of course im kidding!) More than half of my colleagues are absent. The good thing of being here is the silence…I am able to focus on my work without disruptions…break times are longer too...(mind you my officemates and I even dance when we heard the music of pussycat dolls! Hehehe).

While I am writing this strong winds are whistling outside and rain floods the city! Now, im beginning to wonder how I am gonna go home?! Hopefully I will reach the apartment in one piece and boots intact!

21 random things about my work...

1. new things unfold each day which makes work exciting.
2. always beating ASAP deadlines.
3. 8 working hours which is a big fat lie.
4. we don't work on weekends...another lie!
5. we do TV commercials...16-48 hours shoot for a 30 secs exposure!
6. meeting a lot of new friends and sometimes enemies.
7. it is fun fun & fun...oh and a lot of hard work too.
8. glamorous on the outside pero utusan sa totoong buhay.
9. going to places for free.
10. lots and lots of events.
11. 4 meetings in a day (for different products).
12. the opportunity of rubbing elbows with the celebrities.
13. daily struggle to look good and feel great.
14. helping brands grow.
15. it drives passion in me.
16. eating at fancy restaurants for free. (meeting with clients eh!)
17. involves lots of marketing work. im lucky i have adequate background.
18. making product communication plans and presenting them
19. arguing with the boss...at least we agree to disagree.
20. at times it is exhausting.
21. it is someting that i really love doing.

11 random things i like in u...

1. your smile
2. your expressive eyes
3. your intellect
4. the way you carry yourself
5. the way you negotiate - always striving to attain a win-win situation
6. your firm handshake
7. the way i feel when im with you
8. the way you talk to me and compliment me
9. your looks
10. your personality
11. your passion with your career

why do we close our eyes when we kiss?...

this is from the book entitled "why thing are and why things aren't" written by joel achenbach. The book is hilarious!
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well, obviously, people don't look so great up close. You discover millions of new hairs. The eyes turn into goopy pools of slime. And even the most modest blemish suddenly becomes Mt. Pinatubo.

The basic problem is we are too visual to begin with. As predatory, analytical creatures we are designed to rely on our vision more than any other sense. Diane Ackerman, in her book of Natural History of Senses, notes that 70% of the body's sense receptors are clustered in the eyes.

"Lovers close their eyes when they kiss because, if they didnt there would be too many visual distractions to notice and analyze-the sudden close-up of the loved one's eye lashes and hair, the wallpaper, the clock face, the dust motes suspended in a shaft of sunlight."

Also this enables you to pretend that "John" actually is "bruce"

lunch with Batista...

i got an invite to attend a "Greet & Meet Batista" initiated by Jack TV the other day. Since i am not a fan of wrestling...i do not know him so i wasnt planning to go...but i changed my mind the moment i heard officemates swooning about him! Grabe di ako makapaniwala...para akong nakatira sa ibang planet!...it seemed like im the only one who doesnt know him!

The 'Greet & Meet Batista" happened today. Since my client cannot come i asked my officemate to accompany me. I am not a fan kaso sutil ako kaya ako nagpunta para mang ingit ng mga officemates! hehehe. There were a lot of people...mind you..from all ages sila. Meron pa nga nag absent from school just to be there! Sikat pala talaga siya i told myself!

The event was scheduled at 11:30am. We were there at 12nn. He arrived at 1pm...at kakain pa lang sya! kaya ayun, we just took some photos before we head back to office...i still have an internal meeting to attend...lahat ng kuha ko - side view, back view at blurred na front view! sa dami ba naman ng tao!

pero ok na din...i had a free lunch! haha

what will you do if you were in my shoe?

...will you get even? if yes, how?
...will you shrug it off and moved on?
...will you build walls & burn bridges?
...will you pretend that it didnt happen and it was just a bad dream?

what will you do if you were in my shoe?

this is my story...

its been exactly a year now since i received the news that change my life...my boyfriend of 7 years then told me that he got someone pregnant. what made it more complicated was the "someone" was the daughter of his boss! Since he is in the military, there was the threat of discharge from service unless he marries the girl which he didnt want (and didnt happen). it took us a month before we finally decided to break up. i didnt even welcome the break up at first because i thought that our problems were over when the girl had a miscarriage and we can start anew but i was wrong...he asked for his freedom and told me that i deserve someone better. i was bitter but i let him go.

coping up with what happened wasnt an easy one. i was just lucky i was so busy at work that i was able to redirect my focus to my career. i cried until i was numbed with hurt, anger and lots of questions but fortunately i have my friends who supported me and helped me moved on. as part of my coping mechanisms, i wore bright colored outfits, had my hair curled, wore make up and pampered myself! i was prettier than ever :)...i was simply repackaged (to quote a marketing term!) though emotionally i was badly bruised. I was so attached to his family that detaching from them added up to my anguish.

i welcomed 2006 with a renewed spirit! i promised to move on and never look back...then we saw each other when his father died in january. our meeting opened a floodgate of emotions and more questions because i found out that i still love him while he was already dating his high school friend at that time. Since i cannot contain all the hurts and i dont want to bother friends with my situation i started blogging. I found comfort by just writing my feelings.

God must have loved me so much, He send someone to ease my pain. No, he wasn't a new boyfriend!...He is just someone that really caught my attention...he doesnt even know that i am attracted to him. Having met him made me realized that there are lots of "better that him" type of guys and i just have to wait (or find?!) my match!

He is getting married this december. When i heard the news i felt betrayed...I thought its too soon. But on the hind sight, i should be thankful it wasnt me because we are not really meant to be! There were issues that were not apparent before...like i am career driven and he prefers someone who would just stay at home and take care of him. He wants a quiet life in the province while i love the active lifestyle of the city. Though we grew up together but we have grown apart and develop different tastes and habits. I hope he is getting married because he loves her more he loved me and not because he felt he needs to settle down to give meaning to his life and its so happen she is there...but whatever his reasons i wish him happiness.

We do communicate once in a while. I am still in touch with his family but i choose not to visit them. I dont want people to think that i want him back that's why im dropping by. At one point whe i was so angry, i decided to build walls and burn bridges only to find out that i can't do it. I decided to forgive him and them for all the pains...afterall anger is an acid to its container. I believe that i cannot start anew if i won't forgive him...and i think forgiving him is the sweetest revenge.

I read it somewhere that God and Time are the greatest healers...true enough! a year after the breaking news...i look at things and life differently. Before, i had my life planned and i get frustrated when things don't happen the way i want them to...but now I have learned to seize the day and enjoy the moment. I am now happy...with just a few traces of hurts. I have all the reasons to be happy...with all the blessings that i have...i cannot ask for more!

something in common...

i have learned that being happy, forgiving someone & letting go have something in common...it is a CHOICE. YOU DECIDE ON IT. You can always choose to be happy or not, forgive someone and free yourself from anger & hurt or harbor anger and have a heavy heart, let go of something that you do not have any control or hold on to something that might make you misearable...

6 months...

you have brought inspiration to my life for the past 6 months already...you inspire me to work hard, move on and forget the one who broke my heart, dress up and always look my best...and i thank you because of that!

what a wonderful life...

In my daily quest to be happy these are what makes my life wonderful...

exciting work...

• new account. possible new accounts. new market categories to monitor. new TVC in the making. another promo to implement

Blooming love life...

• having a new crush for 6 months now. flirting with the crush. it doesnt matter if im still hoping that the feeling is mutual as long he inspires me.

loving family...

• they are not just my parents they are also my good friends
• my family in the workplace - part of the reason why i am having so fun in the workplace

strong friendships

• mish and betz...my sisters and bestfriends! they are the persons who never grow tired of listening to my endless stories about my latest fancy -b...even if i told them the same stories a thousand times before...they are the ones who listen with excitement as i go through the details of how excited i am with my work even if they really do not understand the dynamics of marketing and advertisng...
• there 's also my housemate and friend eliel. Through him i get to know more the world of the "marsians" that is very much different from mine. He would usually tell me what a marsian is thinking and that no need for a venusian to freak out...girls have the tendency to over analyze things especially if it involves their lovely marsian.
• kring, my youngest friend - a reminder to enjoy life like an 11 year old would...no hang ups, no worries just fun.
• friends from college, former office and childhood friends that i am still in touch until now. they are the evidence of friendships that withstand the test of time.

blessings in disguise...

• all the challenges that i have gone through that made me a strong person today.

The 'I' Tag

I am thinking what it would be like if the norms are different like what if it’s the girls who do the courting?...hmmm then I might have more than one boyfriend!

I said things that I really mean most of the time.

I want to marry a rich, intelligent and handsome man who is so in love with me so he will not complain if I spend his money for my pleasures!

I wish the man I want to marry exist!...and if he does I wish to meet him ASAP!

I miss the good old days when I was still young and I can play and take a bath in the rain…I cannot do that now…neighbors might think that my maturity level regressed.

I hear my favorite song more than 3x a day…because I keep on playing it over and over again! My officemate even wondered if it’s the only song in my playlist.

I wonder what it will be like a year from now?!...

I regret having a relationship with my ex for 7 years. Have I known that we will break up after 7 years I should have not embraced him again when he came back after our first break up…then I could have had more boyfriends! Haha..

I am pretty, smart and fun loving lass…(not so much of a self praise, right?!)

I dance when nobody is watching…I just don’t have the talent.

I sing even if I’m not in tune! I love music but it doesn’t love me back…I might be sleeping when God showered the blessing!

I cry when I’m happy, excited, sad and angry…a novel and a film are not good enough if it won’t make me cry. I am a cry baby it’s not just obvious.

I am not intimidating...others just perceived me to be one!

I write to collect my thoughts and reconnect with my inner self.

I confuse my dad's twin as my dad when i was 4. i was wondering why my father can be in 2 places at the same time...i didn't understand what are twins before.

I need to cut on eating sweets and coffee if i want to stay healthy...but i haven't made the decision yet if i want to stay healthy :)

I should loose weight ASAP! (kusum, sorry im a copycat!)

I finish reading the "How to Flirt with Men" e-book...its time to practice it!

I Tag

vanessa - its been a while since you posted something in your blog.
beck - gawin mo to dali...im sure puro kenneth ito! :)
jigypop - lets see what's your version?!
rhey - hope u do this.
ronald - cge na minsan lang!

our meeting...

i vividly remember when and how we met...it happened last feb 9. you were in the country and we had a strategic discussion. i was really nervous then...i can hardly stand your magnanimous presence..you must be very good because you are so young yet so sucessful! we ended our meeting with a firm handshake to seal our business partnership...but on my end it was just the beginning...

work and having fun...

if workaholic is defined as someone who is having fun at work...then i don't mind being called a workaholic...:)

what's next?...

Business meetings...

Strategic Discussions...

casual conversations...

sneaking meaningful glances...

warm smiles...

i wonder what's next?!...

You...

Nine weeks have passed since i saw you

and i can't deny it, i have been missing you

but thoughts of you keeps me from feeling blue

oh! how excited i am to see you

i can't wait for tomorrow

i hope you feel the same way too

i don't know if this is just an infatuation

all i know is you are my inspiration

and you definitely got my admiration!

tula...

Ako ay hindi makata...

subalit nang ika'y makilala...

ako'y natutong gumawa ng tula...

ako ay nabigla at nagtaka...

ano kaya ang meron ka?...

at ako'y nabighani't nahalina...

Procrastination…

I am suffering from the consequences of delaying this strat paper that I should have finished last week or at least yesterday and not early this morning...but I finished other things and I went out with friends last Saturday …I have no one to blame but me if I only have 3 hours sleep…but then again I can’t promise this won’t happen in the coming days...

and guess what...my most anticipated internal review of the strat paper will not push through today...

...i should have slept early last night...

Reminder....

I read this from a fellow blogger's site and it reminds me how to live life fully...and that i should not be sad or feel empty because i do not have a special someone nor dating...

blog fillers...

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative.You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

You Are a Red Flower

A red flower tends to represent power, seduction, and desire.At times, you are loving like a red tulip.And at other times, you're very enthusiastic, like a bouvardia.And more than you wish, your passion is a bit overwhelming, like a red rose.

What Color Flower Are You?

You Are 56% Lady

You're part lady, part modern woman.Etiquette is important to you, but you brush aside rules that are outdated or silly.

Are You A Lady?

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

You Are an Old Soul

You are an experienced soul who appreciates tradition.Mellow and wise, you like to be with others but also to be alone.Down to earth, you are sensible and impatient.A creature of habit, it takes you a while to warm up to new people. You hate injustice, and you're very protective of family and friendsA bit demanding, you expect proper behavior from others.Extremely independent you don't mind living or being alone.But when you find love, you tend to want marriage right away. Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

confession of an addict...

yes, I am an addict and I don’t know when and how will I overcome my addiction. I tried hard to get them out my system but I always find myself into it again...i just can’t seem to avoid them because they make me happy and get off my mind of any worries.

Here are my addictions…

1. you
I wonder why I just can’t get you out of my mind. You haunt me at work, while I’m watching TV and even in my sleep…

2. blogging
my week is not complete if I don’t get to post or read blogs. Blogging quiets my mind and slows me down.

3. Koreanovelas & I Love NY
I wonder what’s with them that makes me watch TV even in the wee hours of the night unmindful of the heavy task the following day.

4. Shoes
how can I resist high heels?! They make me feel sexy even if I’m not!..and strappy sandals are just too cute to ignore!

5. Bags
from pouch bags to overnight bags…they are just lovely especially if it matches my outfit and shoes! J

6. Coffee
my day is not complete if I don’t get to drinks at least 2 cups!

7. Skirts & spandex shirts
I can wear themfor a month without repeating a single one!

8. kikay stuffs (all the girly stuffs!)
from accessories to pc wall papers...they all have a touch of my being "girly"!

9. Work
im just having so much fun at work…though it’s really tiring most of the time.

10. Love
oh well...im a hopeless romantic! No matter how hurting my previous relationship was im still looking forward to be in love and be loved again! If and only if... he will ask me to marry him right at this very moment (mish, wag na mag react...wishful thinking nga eh!) i will not hesitate to give up my work and live with him in his homeland! ...dont get me wrong i will just give up my work here but it doesnt meant that i will not be working there...

Damn...im so i addicted with you! I started my addictions with you and ended it with love that is related with you! *sigh*

My Personality Profile (daw?!)...

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive. A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.You are good natured and people enjoy your company.You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

somewhat true!

My stress level...

Your Stress Level is: 58%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard.When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems.But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.

aba...mahaba haba ang tolerance ko! hmmm???

The Keys to My Heart ...

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

????...

blessings...

when days are difficult and tommorow seems gray...

counting my blessings is the only thing that i can hold on to...

it makes me realize that there are no bad events & circumstances...

they are life's lessons sometimes known as blessings in disguise!

my crafts...

i am into beadworks and other crafts when i am not busy. This is one of my creative outlets (aside from blogging!)...i make bracelets and neccklaces. key chains and cellphone accessories...and my latest craze is changing the bracelets of my watches with beads!...

rainy day sentiments...

its been raining the past few days and i dont know what's with the rain that makes me feel sentimental...lately i have been listening to love songs as the memories of old love cross my mind (don't worry Mish its really old...as in past...no chance of getting together again!). There are also days that feelings of thankfulness overwhelms me...i feel so blessed having great parents, good friends, challenging career (something that transforms me from a mere orange to a delicious orange juice...in other words...pigang piga lahat ng talino ko sa trabaho...lahat ng brain cells ko are utilized!!), supportive boss and colleagues & appreciative clients. I have also realized that being single and unattached is a blessing :)

rainy days also reminds me of old days and old ways...when things are all simple and i was still so easy to please (im still easy to please though...but not "so easy" anymore!)...the days of no major anxieties...the nights spent reading books with the flash light as the source of light under the blanket! That was when i was so addicted with reading that mama imposed a 10pm lights off...

rainy days make me slow down...literally i have to because if i wont i might slip! there's something with the rain that relaxes my spirit...i dont know what it is but it does the trick...i feel relaxed even if i have a hectic schedule and deadlines to beat...

i just hope though that it wont be raining for a week straight i might sing... rain rain go away silly hazel wants to play...

btw, im talking about light to moderate rain showers here not typhoon!

My Cebu trip...

i was in cebu last weekend for the 2nd regional draw of Extra Joss Extra La-Cash Part 2... day 1 was spent for alignment meetings and store checks while day 2 was allotted for the draw...and day 3 for editing of the airing material and cebu tour!

one of the perks of my work is free travels! but of course its all work related trips but i always make sure that i endulge in what i call "leisure after work" activities! it doesnt matter if i only have 2 hours of sleep, migraine attacks or even LBM...nothing can stop me from enjoying whatever i can enjoy in the area...in the case of cebu, its the scenery and historical spots!

I was with my Indonesian client and i had a hard time giving him the historical background of the spots...i happened to left some of my lessons in college and too bad that includes a big chunk of history...

@ shangrila mactan

shangrila mactan garden

Sharingla Mactan is one of the premier hotel in cebu with a beach front...an overnight stay will cost me an arm and leg and maybe my kidneys too if i insist on another night...

we visited Magellan's cross...i think it is the cross that magellan brought to the philippines that marks the christianization of the filipinos...

plantation bay hotel and resort is the counterpart of Shangrila Mactan...i like it better here...the management were so kind to give us a quick tour of the entire resort...but again it will cost me a month's salary (gross!) if i want to have an overnight stay with food and spa...

...how i wish i could marry a rich man so i can spend his money enjoying here!... :)

what will i wear tomorrow?...

working in an office that do not impose a uniform prompt me to ask myself this question (out loud!) on a daily basis amidst my tons of workload and hectic schedule!...sometimes i would even think of what color scheme will my outfit be the following day...will i be in black and white...hmmm or will i be in pink...i love pink so i might wear a pink blouse match with floral skirt...it will go best with my pink inspired bag and pink sandals...perfect!

bakit kaya ganun???...

sabi ko sa sarili ko ayaw ko na...dapat tigilan na ang kahibangan ko sayo...ayaw ko ng maging addict sayo na hinahanap ka...ayaw ko na ang feeling na parang kulang ang linggo ko kapag wala akong natatanggap na email mula sayo kahit work related email naman lahat ng pinapadala mo...sabi ko din...di na kita iisipin...career na lang muna...kaya lang bakit ganun???...kung kailan ko napag desisyunan na tanggalin ka sa sistema ko...i will received an email from you...o kaya tatawag ka...the usual...magtatanong ka ng updates ng projects tapos in the middle of my updates kukumustahin mo ako...tatanungin mo pa ako kung kumain na ako...kaya tuloy ayan...gusto na naman kita!...parang this week...sa dami ng updates ko wala akong natanggap na email sayo...tapos bigla na lang kagabi habang ako'y nagpapaka-busy na requirement nyo...nag email ka...syempre work pa rin...kaya lang nag leave ka ng note na we will discuss it on tue...ayan looking forward tuloy ako sa tuesday kasi alam ko tatawag ka!...hmp...sabi ko nga ayaw ko na sa'yo eh!...kaya lang ang hirap kaya ng ganun...pano ka matatanggal sa sistema ko kung katrabaho kita?...hindi lang basta client...ikaw ang boss! sana may ma-hire na kayong brand manager para sya na lang lagi kausap ko at mabawasan ang interaction natin...siguro kapag nagkaganun di na kita maiisip...kaya lang sigurado naman ako na kapag nagkataon malulungkot ako kasi mamimiss kita!...hay...sabi ko nga crush lang kita...di ako in love sayo...sana ganun nga lang...kung hindi...sana ma in love ka din sa akin! haha...wishful thingking ata yun...pero malay natin...pretty and smart naman ako...baka madaan sa intellectual attraction! hay ulit...

Lord, pwedeng humiling???...di ba i've been through a lot...and that i deserve someone better...pwede kayang sya na?!...hehehe...cge na Lord....please!

crushes & extra joss...

i just realized that having a crush is like drinking Extra Joss...it gives an energy boost!...and an overdose can cause sleeplessness!

Home At Last…

Finally I got the chance to spend the weekend at my parents’ home…It’s been a month since I last saw my folks and my brother…I bet they miss me because my mom prepared buko salad, grilled bangus and buttered shrimps for lunch last Saturday. We spent Sunday malling at SM Clark (it’s the latest craze of the people here since it’s the most sophisticated mall). Brother cooked his specialty for lunch yesterday, adobong manok! His gesture surprised me because he despised washing the dishes how much more cooking for me?! That must be my reward for coming home!

I used to go home at my parents’ place every other weekend but when I get to handle Extra Joss Energy Drink going home regularly becomes a struggle. There are times that I need to work on weekends and sometimes I’m just too tired to travel and all I want is to sleep…but don’t get me wrong…I am not complaining…I am absolutely delighted and challenged to handle Extra Joss! I get so excited having to manage the account that I choose to really put my heart and passion into it. Thus, working long hours is inevitable…but again it is my choice…I was not demanded to do so...having said that, being home is really a taste of heaven!

My youngest bestfriend…

Kring is my youngest bestfriend…she is only 11 years old. She lives a few houses away from ours…I have known her when she was just a year or two but we became friends when she was 7 years old and was nosing around while I was doing my jigsaw puzzle. She was so interested with my puzzles that she dropped by our place everyday (I was a bum for a couple of months that’s why I was home)...then dropping by our place from school became her ritual. At times, she would spend the night at our place and oftentimes we bathe in the rain! When I joined the workforce again, she would patiently wait for me on weekends. Sometimes, she would send text messages asking when will I be home. Since I’m very fond of her I see to it that I have something for her…from beads, slippers (the same as mine!), shirt (mine was pooh, hers was tigger!), pencils (she collects them!) and other girly stuff that I collect!

Having her as a friend reminds me of how it is when I was her age…she taught me how to be patient and to enjoy the things that I have rather hoping for the things I do not have…and most of all because of her I have learned to nurture the little child in me…

childhood memories...

childhood memories are the best!...they were the years of innocence and lots of fun...that was the stage were problems evolved around crushes, school projects and assignments, misunderstanding among friends and sibling rivalries...the time when we played in rain, enjoyed hide and seek, our first encounter with make ups and lipstick...nancy drew & sweet valley high were among our favorites...that time it seemed like we just can't get enough of our long talks...the lazy afternoons spent watching VHS tapes...and no major concerns like work and career issues, heart breaks, no big decision to make...everything was so simple at that time...
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memories of my childhood went rushing back yesterday when mish and betz visited me at home...they used to live in my neighborhood and we shared many fond memories... we walked to the park where we used to hang out 15 years ago...the park witnessed many happenings of our childhood years and listened to our secrets...it has been more than 10 years since the 3 of us spent lng hours talking in this park...and walking there yesterday opened a box of wonderful memories...

(with mish and betz at our home)

(ganda ng kuha ng N70 mo mish ah...para kayng nasa Sing???!)

(with betz at the swing...we used to sit here too!)

(with mish...we used to sit here to get a glimpse of our crush playing basketball in the nearby court...naalala mo yun mish?!)

every little thing he does is magic...

Every little thing he does is magic
Everything he do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for him goes on
Do I have to tell the story
Of a thousand rainy days
Since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me that ends up getting wet
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how true!...i am in fairy land eveytime i see him or talk to him on the phone! how i love the magical feeling of being infatuated even if the feeling is not mutual! :)

so near yet so far…

we were in the same room but talking to different people…
we were sitting beside each other but we’re both doing something else…
I was looking at you but you were too busy to notice…
we managed to have a conversation but it was strictly business…
you did compliment me but you were about to leave in a few minutes…

that day…we were so near yet so far…

Saturday shopping with the girls…

(written yesterday)

Mish & betz, my bestfriends since childhood were here yesterday! We went shopping to Carriedo’s market stalls. It was the first time that the 3 of us went shopping here in Manila. (It was the 2nd time that the 3 of us were together out of our province…the first time was when they accompanied me during my enrollment in college).

They arrived early than I expected…at first I don’t want to believe them that they will be arriving early…how can I if they have been playing jokes with me since our childhood days? I showered and dressed in less than 15 minutes so I wont be that late! We took the long cut to Carriedo…Mish didn’t trust me enough with the short cut! She was too afraid we might get lost…!@?#$%...i really don’t understand why because I have been staying here in Manila for the past 7 years…Oh well! Betz, on the other hand was just happy that she was here! She was suffering from headache but she was smiling!!!

We dropped by a mall on our way to take our brunch…it was already past 10am when we ate…then we boarded another train to carriedo…we spent roughly 5 hours shopping for accessories…accessories and lots of accessories!!! On our way Mish and I bought a pair of shoes in the mall where we took our brunch…I bought mine on a bargain…70% off! Then we went to another mall where Betz bought some closet dividers before we ate dinner…

They left Manila almost 7pm. We had a great day though we were all exhausted with the long walks and non stop giggling…our shopping spree was indeed an experience to treasure specially Mish will be leaving for the States in a few months from now…it was a stress buster on my part too…I do hope we will do this again soon!

feels like sixteen (2)...

i feel like a school girl trying to impress my crush with my poise, outfit and wit! im in cloud 9 even in the simplest compliment that he uttered! i feel my eyes sparkle and my cheeks blush everytime he looks me in the eye...i can't help but smile everytime i think of him...but then again...i am fully aware that the feeling is not mutual...but nonetheless i'm just happy that our paths cross!...i will enjoy the feeling until it last!...

fruits of my labor...

last saturday i watched the airing of our raffle draw material on TV...seeing it aired overcome me with a feeling of fulfilment. it also reminded me of all the things we did in preparing it - the disappointments and little triumphs as well as the tears and laughter i had in heading the project...but the success of the promo is worth all the efforts!
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i got a promotion!...another fruit of all the long working hours and dedication and passion i have in my work...

i think im in love...

...in love with my work and with him!...

love stories...

Every couple has their own love story to tell…
…others are breathtaking while others are bittersweet…
…some last forever while some are short lived…
…some are full of excitement while others are not…

Every love story has its own beginning...
…their first eye contact, first hello and first kiss…
…Other beginnings are magical…they call it love at first sight…
…while some started as friends…and become more than that…

Every love story has its own happiness and thrills…
…the exchange of sweet nothings, laughter and the hugs & kisses…
…the out of town adventures or the cuddling on the sofa on lazy afternoons …
…the star gazing moments and the times spent day dreaming of the future…

Every love story has its own twists and turns…
…the petty quarrels, big fights and the unfulfilled expectations…
…the misunderstandings, disappointments and frustrations…
…the heartaches, bitter tears and broken promises…

Every love story has its own endings…
…some are ended because it’s not really meant to be…
…some ends when couples breathe their last…
…while some were ended even before it started…

All love stories are appealing…
…it may be hurting and heart breaking…
…or it may be inspiring and pleasing…
…but it never fail to touch the heart

how i celebrated my birthday…

I turned 28 last may 19…it was the most unique birthday celebration I ever had…I spent it in Bacolod preparing for the 1st monthly draw of Extra Joss Energy Drink raffle promo…

I started my day by waking up at 3am to prepare for a long day ahead…eliel, my good friend and housemate, was the 1st person who greeted me that day…at 415am we were already in the office to pick up some stuffs that we need to bring along in our trip…5am we are already at the airport…my flight was at 9am that morning but we were early because eliel and michelle were chance passengers for the flight going to Naga…good thing they were accommodated!

My parents called me up at around 6am…and to quote my mother, this is what she said…”child, you’re now 28 (said in a worried tone)!”...

to expound…this is what she was trying to say…

hazel, you’re already 28…im worried you might end up a spinster…you see, you don’t have a boyfriend and you are not dating either…with no prospects in sight...and how can you get a date if you are too focused on your work…im worried because when I turned 28, your papa and I were already planning for our wedding…

I laughed and told her im not worried at all…I know the right man will come soon!...(please Lord…let him come soon!)

That morning my thumb was numb from texting and I already a sore throat from nonstop talking over the phone…with all the ‘thank you’ for all the greetings from loved ones and friends who remembered my day and because I was also busy coordinating with other parties the details of the raffle draw preparation….i only stop texting and talking over the phone when I boarded the plane…I was so tired that I didn’t even pay attention to the handsome guy beside me!...(damn…he could have been a good prospect!)

We spent the day preparing for the draw and doing some store checks…we had the draw in Saturday afternoon and experienced a bit of night life in the city after that. Sunday was spent for editing the footage of the draw for an airing material and some time in Mambukal Resort and enjoyed the gifts of nature…the hot spring and falls and the greenery…

The people are warm and very accommodating…they never failed to make me feel special that weekend…the food was great too…specially the grilled chicken and bangus, and the sizzling squid! Yumyum…

I may have spent my birthday and the entire weekend in Bacolod working…but I made sure that I had my share of fun to make my birthday a memorable one!...a blessing to be treasured forever!

our rendezvous with ilocos...

since i was envious when kusum talked about her Goa trip...i better post about our ilocos tour too...this is long overdue...i planned to post this weeks ago...and here it is...

day 1 -friday afternoon of Apr 28

happy faces boarded the bus...t'was a long drive...12 hours to be exact...but who cares about the long drive if we are having fun? the long drive was an opportunity to bond with officemates...we were restless and sleepless on the way...most of the time we were laughing over nothing...we simply had fun...

Day 2 - April 29

Our first stop was the patapat bridge...i forgot why we stopped there!...hehehe...i hardly heard the tour guide mumbling about the history of the bridge...i guess it has a significance in our history...

then we hit pagudpod...the famous boracay of the north... we played beach volleyball and simply enjoy the summer heat and white sand! Since i want to be different...i put on sun tan oil instead of sun block!...i want to have tan lines...my boss was wondering why because im already dark...i just told him i want to be darker! i want to get those tan lines to let people know that i went to the beach! hehehe...sensya na nagpapapansin ako!

in the afternoon we proceed to Fort ilocandia an hour drive from pagudpod. it is one if not the best hotel in ilocos region...again we enjoyed the pool and the beach...what the heck if it wasnt white sand...beach is beach! Fort ilocandia is a garden hotel...there are lots of flowers and grass...they have a mini zoo too! the food was sumptous enough to make me forget that im on a perpetual diet!... too bad we just stayed there for a night!

Day 3 - April 30

The breakfast was great!!!...not just because the food was delicious...but also because there were a lot of good looking males there...my stomach and eyes were full!

Then we toured the historical places and museums in ilocos prior going to the famous street in vigan (maybe its not at all famous because i forgot the name of the street!)...where the old houses are seen...though most of the houses were converted to stores selling vigan delicacies and antiques...

after the long day...we headed back to manila...another 8 hours drive...we drank tequilas and sang old songs on our way back to manila!!!

it was indeed tiring but fun!!!

working hard or workaholic?...

a former client who is also a friend told me to take things (stuffs related to work) easy... try to balanced work and play...and that i should learn how to delegate...i am disturb by his comment because my last project with him was last january and we havent seen each other since december...i wonder where that comment came from! I wonder if i have an "all work and no play" aura even in YM for him to say that...he knows that i am busy but he doesn't know the extent of it.

one of my colleagues told me that i am focusing on my work too much...giving in to clients' requests even if it would require me to wave my magic wand...she also told me that it seems like i havent grieve enough when my ex boyfriend and i broke up last year and i found comfort in working so darn hard...and got used to it!...and that now i'm having a hard time departing from it!...too bad, right?!

honestly, i enjoy my work so much...i'm in love with what i'm doing (but of course... if my knight appears i will love him more than my work!) and i feel that my working hours are my playtime...but i'm still trying to figure out if what they say are true...am i working hard or workaholic?...by the way, what's the difference?

long or short engagement?...

warning:...i DONT want my ex boyfriend back!

one of my friends announced that she is engaged and will get married late this year...they have been together for almost 2 years prior their engagement...they do look happy together... we (my ex and me) looked happy too before!...we talked about getting married year 2 of our relationship...we planned where to live...we discussed my relocation to his province after the marriage...we dreamed and draw our dream house...we had names for the babies including names for the twins in case we will have them(my father has a twin...that's explain the anticipation)...my parents and his parents already met (well, my parents visited his father in the hospital...its not something like we arrange a gathering for them to meet)...we've been together for more than 7 years (more than 5 years net minus the 2 break-ups of 6-8months each)...long enough to know and be comfortable with each other but still we broke up (i don't want to go to the details of it...its not worth the effort anyway...to sum it up...its his fault why!)

this leads me to ask which is better long or short engagement?

...my logical mind said ...long engagement is better because you get to know the person and his family better before deciding to tie the knot.

...my experience suggests...short engagement is better simply because i got burned by the long engagement!...and i think...the excitement of knowing him more is still there compared to the long engagement where almost everything is predictable.

but how long is long and how short is short?

...its obvious that one week is really short and 10 years is really long...but i don't have an idea what's the right time of the relationship to get engaged...i bet it depends on the age of the couple...(if they're in their 40's they're on the rush to get married...they will just have a divorce if it won't work!)...maturity level and stability both emotional and financial...(2 years might even be short if they are both immature and unstable)...

well...for singles (like me)...who are attractive but unattached, currently not dating but perceived to have someone special by almost everyone ...we really do not think of the short or long engagement...we are too busy enjoying life and trying to figure out where is our knight...he might have encountered an accident or detours along the way due to road construction that cause his delay! get help will you?!...im getting impatient for the long wait! :)

tag of four...

Here's my version of tag of four...

Four jobs I've had:
1. researcher
2. marketing officer
3. ad person
4. working housewife...i might be a teacher (that is if i will get married...hopefully!)

Four movies I can watch over and over:
1. A walk in the clouds
2. pearl harbor
3. i am sam
4. i still have to figure out the 4th one

Four places I've lived:
1. Bislig, Surigao Del Sur
2. Mabalacat, Pampanga
3. Baguio City
4. Manila
...hopefully the 5th one will be in...(sa mga nakakaalam ng crush ko...wag na lang magreact...quiet na lang ha!)

Four TV shows I watch:
1. Jewel in the Palace (im addicted to koreanovelas lately)
2. Commercials (mandando...show ba 'to?)
3. Discovery Channel's Crime Nights & modern detectives
4. Seconds from disaster

Four places I've vacationed:
1. corregidor
2. ilocos
3. davao
4. bohol

Four foods i love:
1. chocolates
2. kinilaw
3. fried/grilled chicken
4. potato chips

Four sites I visit daily:
1. blogs that i read
2. tickle.com (the tests are amazing and fun! try it!)
3. google (for research @#%$)
4. yahoo

Four places I'd rather be right now:
1. home... sleeping (i haven't gotten enough sleep lately)
2. pagudpud
3. france ...with him! :)
4. the place where my crush is... :)..can't put it here he might read this.

random items in my bag:
1. small notebook
2. pen
3. kikay kit
4. i-pod

Four things most people don't know about me:
1. i won 3rd place in a cooking contest when i was in High School
2. i'm a sentimental fool
3. i always have a song for every guy that im interested (hahaha!)
4. friends used to call me banana girl

four people i want to do this
1. beck
2. leah
3. leili
4. tats

hope mish and betz are into blogs too so they do this...

blogger's delight...

i started blogging because i want to keep a journal that i can access anywhere i am... and something that i can share with my friends even if we are far apart...writing about my experiences and feelings makes me keep in touch with my inner self...hence it helps me know myself better...

but one of the delights of blogging that i never expected is having to know and relate to other people's feelings...people that i do not know and might not even meet in person... first it's diamonds...check her site through the curtains...we were both heart broken when i stumble with her site and we somehow have that connection knowing that we are in the same boat together and believing that "this too shall pass"...i think we are now moving on and recovering from the heartaches...then there's Kusum...she commented to one of my post and when i check her site i was surprised to sense the similarities in our personalities by reading her posts...articulate...out-going...fun loving...passionate with our career...i bet single and unattached too!...check her site...something about everything...

im glad i started blogging...and i will keep on posting as long as i can...:)

Friday the 13th...

it not friday the 13th but it seems like it is for me...not just today but since tuesday...i experience all the mishaps i can think of in the office...my blood boils everyday...and no matter how i tried not to get angry...i always end up angry...hmp...well even if i tried to be rational about things it doesnt mean i don't have the right to be angry...my anxiety is building up again...i just have to learn to live and dance with it...afterall this is normal when you are in advertsing!

ideal man...

my previous post leads to think hard and assess what i look for in a partner...i come up with a list...

1. God-fearing.
we have to share the same Catholic faith...

2. romantic.
he exerts effort to make almost everyday an occassion & knows how to make me feel special.

3. Presentable
not necessarily as presentable and handsome as Tom Cruise...

4. Flexible
He can dress up for an elegant party but doesnt mind getting his hands dirty either.
He can gel with almost anyone.

5. Achiever
Someone that i would really admire. Brilliant but not arrogant.

6. Loving
Loves his family...a reflection of how he would love me and my family.

7. Mature
mature enough to make rational decisions.

8. Humorous
someone who can make me laugh and doesnt mind making fun of himself.

9. Positive
Have a positive outlook in life...someone who doesnt dwell on the life's setbacks.

10. Confident
self-assured and no insecurities.

there it goes...i do hope he exist...and can be my knight!

another set of blogthings...

blogthings do the trick in my busy days...i get to post something here and it somehow burst the stress bubble! You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

if this is true...then maybe...just maybe i have a good chance to get him to notice me!

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy

While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for timeWhether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses...... You don't give men enough of your time.As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing.

....oh my God!...this is quite true and my prospect is busier than me!

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months

Maybe you need a bit more time to get over an exOr maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guysEither way, you'll find a boyfriend in time...As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys

hope this could be true!

dampen spirit...

my energy level these past days is at its lowest point...it seems like no matter what effort i exert i still fall short of my standards (and of others i guess) and i am disappointed...

learnings...

looking back to the time that i have written "lost" i never thought back then that i will be really happy in a matter of months...i never imagined that i will feel complete and ready to love (maybe) again...my past relationship taught me a lot of things...i have learned to love and value myself more and demand from the entire world what is due to me...i have come to realize that i am attractive (though not attractive enough to become a model...hehehe) and intelligent enough to find a good catch...i don't have to settle with someone who couldn't treat me right and who couldn't love me with the kind of love i deserve...i don't have to shortchange myself...what happened to us was not my fault...maybe i just loved him so much that he has taken me forgranted or maybe he really doesn't loved me enough...i deserve someone better...someone like my crush! :)

Come what may means...

Lord, im taking the backseat please lead my way...

respite...

i want to take a break...a break from all the chaos of this world...away from the troubles of my heart...a retreat from all of my fears and axieties...a rest from the demands of my work...

i want to take a respite...an out of the country vacation even just for 3 days...

success...

most often than not success has nothing to do with money...i believe success comes when you are able to achieve your dreams with passion and in the process you have learned more, loved more. laughed more and embraced life more...

untitled...

i want to write about something but i just can't figure out what that something is...it seems like i can't organize my thoughts and come up with a good topic to write...maybe because my anxiety is at its peak these days...hmm...i want to take a break from all the project roll out preparation and BTL concepts that i have to come up and post something in my blog...my mind is so cluttered with so many things that i want to step back and recharge...however, my current workload doesn't permit a retreat...i wrote in my previous post that i will be very busy in February but at the rate things are going i will be very busy until October!...i wonder how the hell i could have a love life with this?!...

My mother asked me last saturday if i am currently dating someome...all i said was..."how i wish i am!"...she told me that she married my father at the age of 28 and gave birth at 29...my reading of what she told me...she's a bit worried that i'm turning 28, still single and pretty much unattached and not even dating! I proudly told her that i have a crush! ...then she commented crushes are for the teeners and relationships are for the adults...well, all i did was keep my mouth shut!...

I am enjoying my freedom...hanging out with friends 'til dawn without someone pestering me where i am and what time will i go home...spending weekends the way i want to...i do miss cuddling with someone...but i do believe the right man will come in God's perfect time...i just hope it might be soon and i hope its gonna be him...my crush!
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i still don't know what should be the title of this post...any idea?

My Objective & Strategies in life...

Objective:
To live life to the fullest in accordance with God’s will

Strategies:
- By maintaining a very good relationship with God through prayer and worship
- By living one day at a time
- By giving more and loving others more
- By forgiving those who have hurt me even if they don’t ask for forgiveness
- By laughing more and by always choosing to be happy despite the setbacks.
- By accepting and letting go of the things I cannot change and trying to change the things I can.
- By spending more time with my parents because they are not getting any younger
- By continuously striving for excellence in everything that I do.
- By keeping in touch with my inner self
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I am in the middle of doing a strategy plan when I have thought of what is my objective and strategies in life…I hopes these will work just the way almost all my strat papers work for my accounts.

the romantic writer???

You Should Be a Romance Novelist

You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart.You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer...And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories.As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Happy soul!

You Are 84% Happy

It's unlikely that you know anyone happier than you.You know how to be happy, no matter what life throws at you.

How Happy Are You?

work and play...

my working hours are my playtime...

the storyboards are my comic books...

the TVCs & RCs are my favorite cartoon shows...

the strat papers are my drawings...

my clients and colleagues are my playmates...

my superiors are the game masters...

my accounts are my precious dolls...

my timelines suggest what to play next...

my workplace is my playground...

more of blogthings...

You Are The Magician

You are powerful and wise - beyond what anyone can see.Deeply complex, you have the resources to connect to the spiritual and material world.You posses the knowledge to manipulate your life and the lives around you.You also have a great healing power, should you choose to use it. Your fortune: You have unhidden powers that you have yet to tap into. Soon, you will better understand how to use your intellect and intuition. Believe it or now, you will discover how you can manipulate yourself and others for good.You are at the beginning of a path of spiritual enlightenment.

What Tarot Card Are You?

Your Brain's Pattern

You're a simple thinker, and this is actually a very good thing.You don't complicate matters when you don't have to.You look for the simplest explanation or solution, and you go with that.As a result, your mind is uncluttered and free of stress.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

workaholic???...

i enjoy my work so much that i dont mind working long hours and even on weekends...others would even thought that i am a workaholic...but i dont feel like one...i am just a hard worker, dedicated and passionate with what i am doing...others even thought that i dont have life outside my work...but its not true...i do go out with friends who are not in anyway related to the advertising industry...i play with my 11 year old bestfriend! i still have time to pray and worship...though most of the time i hang out with friends in the industry simply because they are the only ones who are not yet home and sound asleep at 12 midnight on weekdays! I am busy but i do have a life!

simple...

When i asked my friends if they find me simple...their answer is a big NO!...and it made me assess how i fnd myself...

Simple means...

- uncomplicated
i am sure i am not complicated...i know what i want in life...

- plain
may be i am not...i find myself fashionable...i like dressing up and looking good...it adds up to my confidence!

- undemanding
i am demanding when it comes to work...because i strive for excellence...i push myself to the limit...however i am not demanding to a partner...i have learn to let go of the things i cannot change...

- straightforward
i am straighforward!...which sometimes makes me tactless!...i do not go around the bush...i say my piece (if i have something to say)...

-clean
since i am concious with my appearance it follows that i look clean (hey...do u think there's someone who wants to look unclean???!)...i live a clean life too... :)

With these assessment...i therefore conclude that I AM SIMPLE!!! hahaha...

random thoughts on a lazy monday afternoon...

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i have lots of things to finish but my brain refuse to budge...it refuses to analyze any data that i need to analyze...everything seems to be a blur...my mind is still on a weekend mode...but i will force it to work tonight...hopefully i will be successful!
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i have been daydreaming about my new crush...thinking what it would be like if he will ask me for a date...i know this is really a wishful thinking and very much far from reality but the thought never fails to lighten up my day!...this is the first time that i have a crush who is very intelligent and it seems like his standards are so high and i can't meet it...not even half way...it doesnt mean though that i am not a good catch (i believe i am!!!)...its just that i am intimidated by his achievements...i can't wait to see him...it will be a few more days before im gonna get a glimpse of him!
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i will be meeting a friend later...one of my secret keepers! Can't wait to sit back and reminisce the old days...
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i want to take up a short course on creative writing...i have been wanting this for quite sometime now...i want to be able to express my feelings and thoughts in poetry...i think creative writing runs in my blood but it needs enhancement and practice...hopefully i would be able to enroll in such course within this year...

the smell of the rain...

last saturday, it rained on my way home...and the smell of the rain brought wonderful memories... i remembered how i played in the rain with friends unmindful of the possibility of catching colds afterwards...the times mish, betz and i watched vhs tapes during the rainy days...it brought smile remebering mish holding an umbrella while betz and i took a bath in the rain...she wasn't able to join us because she was sick...the rainy afternoons i spent writing thoughts and feelings in my journal...the times i would sit by my window during my college days mesmerized by the rain while counting the days i would finally go home...the laughter i shared with my special someone while walking in the rain...the times i cuddled myself to bed while reading a good book... lots of precious memories rushed to my mind that afternoon that made me thank HIM for the rain and the memories it bring...

work related stuffs

im dead tired...i went to work early today despite the fact that we had our tvc shoot yesterday which started at 9am and finished at 2am...thanks God one down...2 to go!...i guess i have to eat more proteins and take lots of B vitamins ...i need to keep my brain cells healthy so i can meet the demands of my work...i have to review 3 proposals that are needed by the client by monday...fine tune my presentation for another client on wednesday...brainstorm with my client for a new project...tough job!...but hey...being appreciated by my clients for a job well done and for the passion i have in helping grow their brands is more than enough to keep me going!


next week is another crazy week at work...but it will be full of fun and excitement...

feels like sixteen...

i feel like sixteen lately!...and i love it!...i feel like a school girl having a big crush for the 1st time!...i melt in his presence...just the mere thought of him brings smile! a text message from him makes my day...he is an inspiration!...well he does know that i exist...but i'm pretty sure the feeling is not mutual...but nonetheless im happy that our paths crossed...

do you still remember how it felt when you were sixteen?

intimidating...

unapproachable. frightening. uncontrollable. daunting. overpowering...
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many people claimed that they find me intimidating. at first, their impression doesn't bother me at all...if people are intimidated by my presence...its not my problem...its theirs!...however, lately it starts to bother me because...friends start to tease me about it...and old friends confirmed that i do have an intimidating personality...but honestly im easy to be with...i laugh a lot...i have a zest for life...i am approachable and i do believe that i can be a good friend (di ba michelle...mag-agree ka! haha.)...my friends can attest to that...but i'm not claiming that i'm not naughty (because i am!)...

No turning back...

i already made a decision...i will not go back to you nor accept you if ever you want me back...i will push forward until i find my knight...i will love him more than i have loved you...i will push forward until i find my better half who will complete my happiness...i will push forward and there will be no turning back...i will not tread the path we treaded before...

Some good things...

good things start to happen when i let go of you...i guess i am still lucky i have so many things to be thankful...my fulfilling work (including my handsome & intelligent client - an inspiration to work better and make a good impression!!!), my freedom, my new home away from home, and many more...life never ceases to give surprises!

good things really happen when i let go and let God!!!

loving you...

i love you so much that a lifetime is not enough to get over you...
but i love myself more that i have to stand firm and do what i have to do...

if letting you go means loving you then i just have to let you go...
i know i will be fine because i believe that God loves me too...

i love you so much that i want you to be happy even it means happy with someone else...