wholeness means being able to feel every emotion

 Bruce Conching shared during our ikepono class that a person cannot completely feel joy if he cannot feel pain.  I think that what makes kids whole.  Have you noticed how kids can be so happy - laughing and carefree? and how they can be so frustrated and angry also? Have you also noticed how numb people can be - like zombies  - not able to feel pain and love? Well i have seen both. My son has so much joy but can throw a tantrums when frustrated.  While my husband is like a living zombie - who suck up all pain making him unable to show how loving he can be.  Living with him made me a zombie too - feeling unloved and hits him back by not showing how much i really care.

A lot of us are living zombies. numb. then we ask ourselves why we become this way and since we don't get answers, we feel lost.  I was in that situation too.  I am so grateful i was able to get out of it. Ikepono did it to me.  It was really a life-changing seminar. After Ikepono, i can say that i am whole again and i am a better person.  It is my wish that my husband can attend it too.

Hazel, let go...

Let go and let it be - this is the message i get from the Superconscious. It is something hard for a control freak like me but it doesn't mean that i cannot learn it.

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A beautiful and strong girl named Hazel, who lives in the countryside, has a lot of things going in her life and she is weary.  One day, she went to the mountains to take a break.  On her way up, she was thinking a lot of things…asking why, trying to make sense of everything and beating herself up of what ifs and what it could have been better if.

As she was walking the trail, an otter suddenly appeared and sort of smiled to her, as if inviting her to get out of the trail and lose control.  She was afraid and questions ran through her mind…what if I get lost? How will I come back home? But the otter is very inviting so she loosen her guard and follow it.  The otter led her to a secluded prairie where there were beautiful flowers, fresh air and birds singing.  It was so beautiful and serene.  Suddenly there was a bright, blinding light and an angel whispered “take a rest hazel, sleep”.  Calmness overcome her and she took a nap.  It her dreams, an angel talk to her again and said, I will clear your spirit and you should let go.  Do not fear, you are safe in God’s care.  DO what your heart is telling you to do and I will be with you every step of the way. Then hazel woke up refreshed and inspired. 

What scares you?

saw this in the internet. Just reposting.

So True. We tackle this during our Ikepono with Bruce Conching.   I realized that i fear being successful because i have the belief that if i am successful my marriage might fall apart. I am working on that belief now through affirmations.

on life and blogging

I miss blogging.  I am happier when i write my thoughts and feelings.  It helps me sort things out in my mind and express my emotions.  Before, blogging was my respite from the routine and the busyness of work. It was like i was talking to myself - hugging and telling me "hey hazel brace up, this too shall pass" if i am under the storm...and  "you're awesome you made it" for my triumphs.  It was my piece of heaven.

About 10 years ago, i started this blog and posted more than 170 entries in 2.5 years.  I remember how i look forward to blogging - i wrote my blog at night and post it in the morning - this was during the days when internet was only available at the office and famous coffee shops (at a high price!). I read my blogroll and reply to comments before i pack up and head home.  I met other bloggers and hang out with them. It was fun. 

I forgot why i stopped blogging.  I was meaning to write before but it seems like my cluttered mind could not focus on something.  Perhaps, i was in topsy-turvy and even writing could not ease what i was feeling then. Maybe things were too painful to write like how we lost mama from cancer and how i held her before her last breath. Or may be i was too busy being a wife and mom that i forgot how soothing it is to blog.

There is so much to write about and to sort out.  I am just happy that i am blogging again!

my greatest crush...

yesterday i was trying to write a blog but i ended up reading my old posts....particularly the posts about my greatest crush! I felt like i was sixteen again just by reading them. Until now, he still make me smile. My posts reminded me of how i drew inspiration from him to recover from a painful break-up and how i excelled at work...yes he made me excel...i had to impress him that time because he was my client!

We are both married now but every time he crosses my mind, my heart skips a heart beat and it sends smile to my face!

...i wonder if i make him smile too.

im partially back!

i miss blogging...sobra! i have a lot of things to write. i will write soon and repackage this blog! But for now its time for mig's milk! :)

changing places...

Work & Play
i wrote this at the height of my passion and enjoyment at work.

my working hours are my playtime...
the storyboards are my comic books...
the TVCs & RCs are my favorite cartoon shows...
the strat papers are my drawings...
my clients and colleagues are my playmates...
my superiors are the game masters...
my accounts are my precious dolls...my timelines suggest what to play next...
my workplace is my playground...
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I will be playing with a new set of playmates in a different playground soon. I will certainly miss this old familiar playground where i played with friendly playmates for almost 4 years. For sure, i will long for my game masters' guidance but i will remember their wisdom for life.

i wonder where this guy is...

What Gets You Whipped?

My Result: Smart

Hey, smarty pants. We're not gonna try to slip one by you. Dedicated and driven, you work hard for what you want, and that's why you always get it. Even though you tend to follow your head, that doesn't mean you ignore your heart.


It's easy for you to fall for a guy who's quick and bright and can keep up with your varied interests. With your maturity and patience, you'll have no problem finding that perfect fellow who is resourceful and bold enough to win your heart. Brilliant!

Take this test >

ang mga sagot sa mga tanong...

Nang sinabi ni Zherwin na may regalo sya sa akin sa site nya alam kong may naghihintay na tag dun...at ito ang version ko!

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? My friend, Dei, he always makes me laugh kahit badtrip na ang situation.

2. What were you doing at 0800? Naglalakad papuntang ofc!

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Nag eemail sa client.

4. What happened to you in 2006? Started blogging and experience freedom!

5. What was the last thing you said out loud? SHUT UP! Favorite kong sinasabi to mapa joke time o hindi.

6. How many beverages did you have today? So far…5 glasses of water and 2 cups of coffee and 2 cups of tea

8. What was the last thing you paid for? Lunch…

9. Where were you last night? I was in our cozy living room at our home in Pampanga

10. What color is your front door? cream

11. Where do you keep your change? Sa coin purse!

12. What’s the weather like today? sunny

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? Coffee crumble!

14. What excites you? Adventures!

15. Do you want to cut your hair? No…not yet.

16. Are you over the age of 25? Oo pero di obvious. :P

17. Do you talk a lot? Tahimik ako kapag tulog, masama loob at nagmumuni muni! Other than that mahilig akong dumaldal

18. Do you watch the O.C.? NO

19. Do you know anyone named Steven? None yet…pero malay natin later may ma-meet akong Steven ang name

20. Do you make up your own words? Oo. May sarili na nga akong dictionary sa mata ng mga friends ko

21. Are you a jealous person? Not really.

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’. Arthur

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’. Kate

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list? Dei

25. What does the last text message you received say? "ambot oi. D nalang sa ko think ana kay gikapoy nako. Hulat na lang ko na muabot…char…hehe!"

26. Do you chew on your straw? No. (pero gaya mo Zherwin…ginagawa ko din syang toothpick paminsan minsan!)

27. Do you have curly hair? no, straight talaga ang hair ko…pero gusto ko syang ipakulot

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to? Bahay lang.

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life? Mga mapagpanggap na kaibigan pero back stabber pala…hay.

30. What was the last thing you ate? Oreo... Yummy!

31. Will you get married in the future? yup yup...i will! kung kanino at kailan...yan ang di ko alam!

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks? “cutting edge” saw it again on cable yesterday.

33. Is there anyone you like right now? Meron si…(di naman kasama sa tanong kung sino diba?!)

34. When was the last time you did the dishes? Last Saturday…after lunch.

35. Are you currently depressed? Definitely not!

36. Did you cry today? hindi pa...sana hindi nga.

37. Why did you answer and post this? Because of Winwin para may maipost ako.

38. Who are you tagging? Bunit sagutin mo to…

sigh...

I am struggling...

I want to break free...

I want this to end...

I want to take control...

I want to move on...

what inspires hazelnut!

What Inspires You?

My Result: Being a Trailblazer

Were you the kind of kid who was always starting up lemonade stands or selling candy bars door-to-door? Even if you weren't an early entrepreneur you definitely like doing things your own way. And why shouldn't you? There's a huge rush when taking (somewhat calculated) risks and heading into uncharted territory — whether that means starting your own business, or just heading to some underdeveloped mystical and magical vacation spot.


With your creativity, vision, and loads of leadership skills, you're a natural at knowing how to get everyone — your friends, your family, or your co-workers — on board with your plans. Of course, that probably also has to do with that positive vibe you're projecting. So keep moving to your own beat. With a pulse as strong as yours, others are sure to follow.

Take this test >

yehey!

i got my passport today! tuloy na tuloy na ang thailand trip! i know its kinda late for me to have it. i was a bit nervous when i was applying for it. i felt i was a firstie in school...unsure of what will happen...worried there might be concerns that will hamper the processing of my application. Kaya sobrang tuwa ko when i was done...more so today when i received it! I'm so happy i have it because it means that i can easily travel abroad and its my latest craze! hehe

My ideal man...

(reposted)
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1. God-fearing.
we have to share the same Catholic faith.

2. romantic.
he exerts effort to make almost everyday an occassion & knows how to make me feel special.

3. Presentable
but not necessarily as presentable and handsome as Tom Cruise.

4. Flexible
He can dress up for an elegant party but doesnt mind getting his hands dirty either. He can gel with almost anyone.

5. Achiever
Someone that i would really admire. Brilliant but not arrogant.

6. Loving
Loves his family...a reflection of how he would love me and my family.

7. Mature
mature enough to make rational decisions.

8. Humorous
someone who can make me laugh and doesnt mind making fun of himself.

9. Positive
Have a positive outlook in life...someone who doesnt dwell on the life's setbacks.

10. Confident
self-assured and no insecurities.

there it goes...i do hope he exist...and can be my knight!

hazel's syndrome...

[hey-zuhl sin-drohm, -druhm], noun, a disorder that is characterized by talking to one's self loudly and often deceives others that one is talking to them but isn't, one is just thinking loudly. Most of one's words are thougths from different topics. Another symptom of this disorder is jumping from one topic to another without finishing any of them. This disorder often manifest when one is highly stressed out, excited, trying to understand a theory, strat, or email that is close to un-understandable.

synonym: temporary insanity

antonym: sane

ikaw, may hazel's syndrome ka din ba?! o talagang ako lang meron nito?

because of blogging...

This is also a long over due tag from Mon.

These are the 5 things that blogging contribute to my life...

1. gained friends. one of the delights of blogging is relating and developing friendships with people that i may not meet in person. I am fortunate to have met some of my blogmates and hope to meet more of them.

2. widen my horizon. blogging introduced me to blogosphere...a world full of intelligent but not so sane people! hehe. I'm more computer literate now that i blog and i've learned lots of things through other people's blog.

3. improve my writing skills. I'm writing business proposals, reports, etc in the office but because of blogging i am able to enhance my journal writing too. :)

4. blogging is also my venue to de-stress. If load in the office becomes unbearable or irritating i blog and blog hop. Pero sa sobrang loaded ko lately all i want to do is sleep and sleep...promise i will get back to regular blogging and blog hopping soon.

5. blogging also keep me in touch with my inner self. this helps me assess situations, feelings and experiences.

Ang saya mag blog diba?! It rocks! hehe

interview...anyone?

I asked Verns for this. However, it took me weeks to comply...sorry mare! Yung tag nga ni Mon gagawin ko pa lang! haha...

Mechanics...
1. Leave me a comment saying “Interview me.”
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. I
get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your blog with the answers to the
questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to
interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you
will ask them five questions.
_____________________

Here are the questions...

1. What's the hardest part of being an adult?
hmmm...i guess its deciding on your own. Unlike when we were kids, our parents decide for us. Now that i am an adult ako na lahat.

2. If you can turn back the hands of time and go back to the time you and your ex broke up, what are the things that you shouldn't have said? things you should have?
i have no regrets. Looking back, i was really careful what to say then. i didnt want to say or do something that i will regret. I was fair (yata kung unfair man sa sarili ko lang).

3. If you can invent something, what will be your invention?
an injectable microchip that will enable me to read one's thoughts by merely looking at his eyes!

4. What turns you on?
i will be a total hypocrite if i will not admit that a handsome face will turn me on...but its his attitude, humor, and being smart that sustains it.

5. What do you think is the best revenge for men who hurt women?
balatan ng buhay at itulak sa pool na puno ng alcohol! haha! Kidding aside, i guess its how a lady carry on after the hurt showing the stupid man that she is happier, prettier and better person without him.

kayo gusto nyo din bang magpa interview sa akin?!

let's play!...

Get the code at www.winterrowd.com

Fully booked…

Beating deadlines…
Planning, planning & planning…
Multiple meetings in a day…
Unending coordination…
Overnight shoot…
Late night recording…
Budgets, Timelines and guidelines…
Mapping of areas...
Promo launch…
I’m fully booked at work lately!

Hundred islands road trip…
Puerto Galera fun…
Batangas road trip…
Eagle point outing…
Discovering Marinduque…
Birthday in Dumaguete…
I was fully booked with fun last summer!

Moved to a new home…
Late night talks…
Rhumcola and vodka…
Tong-its…
Boxing…
Jogging…
Losing weight…
raket...
I’m fully booked with new friends and new interests lately!

Thailand this August…
Hopefully Singapore-Malaysia is next...
A possible tandem skydive this October…
Looking forward to bungee jump in Macau…
Perhaps, a China tour too…
Wishing to try wakeskating in CWC…
Wanting to experience Batanes next summer...
Planning to be in Bohol again…
I’m fully booked with travels and adventures in the near future!

Sa dako paroon…

Minsa’y hinahayaan kong dalhin ako ng aking imahinasyon sa hinaharap.

Doon ay malayang nagkakabuhay ang mga bagay na aking pinapangarap.

Lungkot ko’y naglalaho’t ako’y napapangiti sa mga imahin na aking naaaninag.

O kay sarap isiping lahat ng pangarap ko’y doon magkakatotoo at malalasap!

10 things i (re)learned in the past weeks...

I am supposed to be making my presentation for review tomorrow but I can’t seem to organize my thoughts kaya ito nag muni-muni.

1. life isn’t fair nor perfect.
So I should stop looking for a perfect job, perfect colleagues, a perfect mate, etc. I can only strive for excellence not perfection. Hence, I can only demand an excellent job and not a perfect job! Pero diba ang excellent and perfect are the same?! Hehe.

Its hard to not be a perfectionist if you have a perfectionist boss and detail-oriented clients. Well, I just have to handle it.

2. if i work hard I have to play hard too.
This will keep the balance but I have to make sure that i take care of myself too. If I am sick i can’t either work hard or play hard…boring yun! Kaya tama ang ginawa kong nag-Galera in between busy weeks pero mali ang sagarin ang sarili…kailangan kong magpahinga!...kaso kelan?! Hay!

3. I should believe in me more. If i won’t, none will.
I am my worst (or best?!) critic! I set standards that I can’t almost achieve. I always have the feeling that I am not good enough. Kailangan tigilan to.

4. I don’t have to be too hard on myself. I have to loosen up!
Dahil sa mataas kong standards…I am too harsh to me. Hay…pano ba kasi tigilan to?

5. I am priceless! I do not deserve a fling.
I should refuse to be an option…an alternative. I have to be the first choice!

6. There are things that I have to stop analyzing or I will just complicate things.
tigilan na ang pag iisip kung crush ako ni crush! Walang patutunguhan yan! Wala! Wag kulayan ang mga bagay bagay. Kung type nya ako he will let me know. If not, then he is not just into me.

7. I have to recognize what are the things I can control and can’t control.
Wrinkles will soon appear if I won’t stop being a control freak. Saksakan ang pagiging control freak ko sa work.

8. If I’m annoyed its because I let things affect me.
Deadmahin ang mga nagsasabing kailangan ko nang mag-asawa para maging masaya! I complete me!

9. Friends do grow apart.
Sad fact. I wonder why we are close to being strangers now eh partners in crime tayo dati! Hay…things change talaga. Sabi ko malaki pinagbago mo…siguro malaki din pinagbago ko. Sana wag mo akong i-treat na competitor. Wala tayo sa contest eh. I used to rejoice in your accomplishments but lately hindi na kasi yumayabang ka na.

10. Crush still captivates me.
I thought his charm cease to work on me already but I’m wrong. Isang araw na pagpacute lang at ayun…I feel like I’m falling back to the pit that I have managed to get out 6 months ago. Hay…maisip ko lang sya kinikilig ako! Haha para na naman akong nagdadalaga!

O sha…babush na! Hanggang sa muli! I do miss blog hopping but I just can’t right now. Next week promise…babasahin ko isa-isa lahat ng na miss ko na post nyo.

work and play...

my working hours are my playtime...

the storyboards are my comic books...

the TVCs & RCs are my favorite cartoon shows...

the strat papers are my drawings...

my clients and colleagues are my playmates...

my superiors are the game masters...

my accounts are my precious dolls...

my timelines suggest what to play next...

my workplace is my playground...

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i wrote this last year at the height of my busy days. i am reposting this because i want to feel the feeling of excitement i had when i wrote this despite the tons of work and tight deadlines to meet. These past few days until the moment i am writing this, i am stressed out and highly irritable. It seems like some of my playmates aren't playing the game right. They are pretending to know the game but is a lousy player. I hate pretenders! Why not tell me you dont know the game i might be able to help you rather than play it and pretend to know?!

I am not demanding what isn't due to us and to my client. You are simply not doing what you ought to do. Everything has to be elevated to our level (you should know that) because we need to know everything. We (your team and my team and not my team alone!) are supposed to manage the event and we (you and me not me alone) are suppose to be on top of things! If these things sound unfamiliar to you then i guess you do not have a place here. Go and look for a place that you would fit. And don't you dare mess with my precious dolls again! I am working my ass to earn to take care of them and i won't let someone like you ruin my reputation!

Whew! Now i can breath better!

meeting new friends...

Last saturday was my most awaited day of the week. It was the day i met new friends - verns, zherwin and lyn!

(Rewind to Friday) Zherwin informed us that he will follow around 5pm because he needs to address to some house concern while Verns and I agreed to meet around 1:30pm at ito ang ibang sabi nya...

Verns: hayyy
Verns: wala pa akong costume bukas kasi di ako nakalaba
Verns: lolz
Verns: bahala na si batman

After we bid goodbyes she also sent me a text message na wala pa syang costume for saturday so ako napaisip...hala ano kaya isusuot ko at mukhang pinagiisipan ni verns isusuot nya bukas. Of course i want to make a good impression... Naku di dapat ako naka-flip tops na makapal...buti na lang di ako nag susuot ng pants na sayad sa floor may entry sya noon sabi nya ayaw nyang nakakakita ng ganun...(habang nakaharap sa salamin)...ito kaya o ito?...eh yung off-shoulder blouse ko kaya na pink?...asan na nga ba yun?...sabi nya gusto nya makita si sophia eh...kaso maalikabok dun sa expo...hmp...wag na nga lang. (halungkat ulit) Ah! ito na lang green na blouse ko para mukha akong demure at di ko kailangang mag stomach in all the time. Hindi nila mahahalata ang bilbil ko kasi nakakahiya sa Zherwin obsess pa man din yun sa Spartan look kaya nag 300 sit ups ang drama.

Saturday came...i was really excited to meet them! (yes verns excited habang inaantay ka! hehe) at habang inaantay si verns ito ang mga naiisip ko...naku baka magkaroon kami ng dull moments ang tagal pa man din ni Zherwin dumating! Sabagay mukha naman makwento si verns so hindi concern ang dull moments...will they like me kaya? hmmm...the fact na like nila blog ko so malamang like din nila ako nyan.

Verns really deserve the Little Miss Sunshine title at all smiles sya when i saw her! While waiting for (Sngl na di nakahabol due to the fashion show) Zherwin and Lyn, we talked about dahon at damo (salads), blogs, tarsier and tarsier looking people, kalakaran sa Greenbelt and we rated people 1-10! haha! Nakagawa din kami ng kwento bakit past 5 na wala pa si Zherwin...secret na lang yun namin Win win. :P

Medyo nagulat ako kay Zherwin kasi ang tahimik parang ang layo sa author ng My Thoughts na blog...hehe. Si Lyn nakaka-aliw kasi makulit parang sing kulit namin ni Verns! Kasama na namin sa pagrate ng dumadaan at makwento! Si Zherwin ayun ngiti lang sa tabi...naku ano kaya iniisip nya habang pangiti-ngiti dun?!

Zherwin posted the other details and photos of our saturday adventure here.

Gaya ng sabi ni Zherwin may connection agad when we met and it seems like we've met months ago and not just last saturday! On our way home, Verns and i shared the same thoughts na iba ang blogmates sa chatmates maliban sa safe i-meet mas intelligent kausap. :)

Verns is much more demure in person than who she is in her blogs. She has a very malambing way of saying what she wants to say. She is transparent...what you see is what you get. She is someone i find comfortable and fun to be with maybe because we have a lot of things in common...maliban sa pareho naming gustong may fireworks ang kasal namin! :) Zherwin on the other hand is a true gentleman and a good sport. :D Medyo mahiyain kaya medyo tahimik. May sense kausap and of course fun kasama!

It was really an awesome experience for me - meeting other bloggers for the 1st time. Bloggers who are as passionate as i am (or even more) in blogging and in enjoying life to the fullest!

Now im looking forward to the next EB! Tara EB tayo!

By the way, here are some of the pictures of hanji dolls...ang cute nila...sana pwedeng i-uwi!

malamang singkit din anak nila!

ito yung mga anak nung kinasal sa unang pix after 10 years!

drunken lord na tatay nung bride sa unang pix!

si Jumong...sabi ko!...kapatid nung groom sa 1st pix!

mga anak nila jumong...ang sisipag!

the perk of being a pintasera!...

Last saturday, i got the chance to visit Eagle's Point for an ocular for the upcoming company outing. Bakit ako ang naatasan? kasi pintasera ako kaya isinama ako sa mag-aasikaso ng outing! They have a feeling na pagbubutihin ko dahil sa takot ko na mapintasan...ganun kasi ang pintasera ayaw mapintasan! All i wanted was to tag along the ocular...but i dont know what happened at kami na lang ang lalakad!

Anyways, it was fun! Road trip talaga. Since I am familiar with Batangas (because i used to go there every other weekend but that's another story) i was tasked to be the guide. Leah was in the driver's seat. It took us more than 3 hrs to reach Eagle's Point but it was worth the drive. It was my 1st time to be there.

Rod, the resort manager, welcomed us to the resort (alangan naman saan?!) and accompanied us while we checked the rooms where we will stay and the amenities. Had lunch overlooking the ocean. Went to Sepoc island via speed boat! it was an adrenaline rush moment! i love it! In Sepoc, we discussed with Kuya Bong the activities - mala Extra Challenge, Treasure Hunting at Amazing Race chuva!

the view of the ocean from the resort

i was at the top of the hill overlooking the entire Sepoc Island

the back of the island taken in sepia para parang flash back kuno! hehe

(picture taken by leah)

We can't help but laugh when we saw this hospital. We were wondering kung zigzag ang utak ng mga patients dito or what??? but we later found out na ZigZag ang name ng baranggay because it is along the ZigZag road of Mabini Batangas. Sayang di ko nakunan ng picture ang Antik's Manok! hmmm...may bumibili kaya ng manok dun?

So ayan ang magandang ibinunga ng pagiging pintasera ko!...sana nga maganda ang kahinatnan ng outing...takot ako mapintasan! hay...

sa pula o sa puti?...

i attended a Marketing Conference yesterday (Brand and Trade initiatives), something unusual for someone working in an ad agency. Sabi kasi ng boss ko iba daw kami kasi we also offer marketing consultancy kaya we attend marketing seminars. Nagiging extension kasi kami ng marketing group ng clients...so its not the usual ad agency.

Anyway, being there listening to all the speakers i realize that i love marketing and i want to work in a client side again! I know advertising is also a part of marketing but its different when you are the one who gives the brief what to communicate, if you are the one making the marketing mix, if you are the one negotiating for a better shelf space, if you are the one analyzing the ACNielsen data, if you are the one who do the marketing budgets. Dahil nga extension kami ng marketing team ng clients, i also do marketing works like store checks, part of trade marketing, analyze data and make recommendations but then again its really different kung ikaw ang may say!

It's not that i do not love what im doing. I love advertising (all its pains and glamor) but i do not see myself doing this forever and grow old in the industry. After attending yesterday's conference it seems like there's a burning desire to work on the other side of the fence and be a client once again...naiiyak ako kasi ang lakas ng force telling me to explore the possibilities on the client side now na...para akong sasabog! but there's also a voice telling me - not now...kasi nga naman exciting din ang year na to - madaming big things and milestones waiting to happen...hay ewan nakakalito! basta and alam ko I want to do the marketing plan and not just the complan. I want to approve complans not just present it.

Ayaw ko din ng padalos dalos at pabigla bigla kaya di ko muna gaanong iisipin. for the meantime tatapusin ko muna ang kelangan tapusin kasi madami sila and i can't afford to waste much of my time now.