loving you...

i love you so much that a lifetime is not enough to get over you...
but i love myself more that i have to stand firm and do what i have to do...

if letting you go means loving you then i just have to let you go...
i know i will be fine because i believe that God loves me too...

i love you so much that i want you to be happy even it means happy with someone else...

Happiness...

happiness is a state of being joyful, thankful and positive...it is a matter of perspective...a decision to look at the brigther side of life and not to dwell on the negative...it is a choice.

Reasons...

I don't want to wonder why things happened the way they happened...i believe there are reasons why they happened...reasons that are beyond my understanding now...maybe because what i'm seeing now are parts and not the big picture...i just have to believe that God wants the best for me...

the pitch...

we had our presentation yesterday for an account pitch...it was promising...i hope we would be able to swing it!...

What kind of Food I am...

I am A Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable. You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

naughty...in other words!

Don't tell me...

don't tell me that you know what to do if you are in my shoe...
don't tell me that you know better than i do...
don't tell me that he doesn't deserve me...
don't tell me to forget him and fall for someone new...
don't tell me not to hope and wait for his return...

because...if you are really in my shoe...

you will know that you also don't know what to do...
all you know is you love him and you don't want someone new...

so...until you are really in my shoe...

don't tell me what to do...

my ice cream flavor...

Your Icecream Flavour is...Chocolate!

You are the all time favorite, chocolate! Turning white kids black since the 1800s. Staining carpets, car seats, and bed sheets for centuries. One thing is for sure, you will never go out of style. You can't go wrong with chocolate!

What is your Icecream Flavour?
Find out at Go Quiz

hahaha...somewhat true!

a Closer Look...

I was born in Mangagoy, Surigao Del Sur and spent my childhood days there then we moved to Pampanga where i had my teenage life and learned that life is sometimes unfair and not a bed of roses but its really how to deal with "life's unfair moments" that matters.

I had college far from home because my restless soul wanted to learn the essence of independence at an early age. I took Business Economics in SLU, Baguio City. I really wanted to become an Economist and hoped to uplift the lives of Filipinos...i was so idealistic then. When i realized that becoming an economist is a long and very tedious process not to mention that it is very costly too...i changed my mind.

I decided to join the workforce in Manila and along the way i end up working in the advertising industry and really like it but i don't know how long will i like it though i believe that advertising is comparable to true love. It is the sum of all my loves - research, marketing, meeting people, having fun and excitement, adventures.

My career taught me to be fashionable but i refuse to become a fashion victim! I believe that in advertising one must be able to sell herself first (being appreciated by others ha...hindi yung magtinda ng aliw!) before one can sell his ideas…therefore it is important to always look good!

I am a happy and resilient soul. I always look on the bright side of any circumstances and I do not let life’s setbacks weigh down my spirit. I strive for excellence in anything that I am into may it be in my work or in my relationships.

I am not perfect. I have my flaws. I can be brutally frank and tactless at times. I do get even from time to time.

Those who do not really know find me intimidating, cold hearted, hard to please and liberated but I beg to disagree. I do believe that I am approachable enough to win friends, warm hearted as the summer heat (hehehe…nakakapaso!), easy to please – anything in pink will do the trick, and conservative (yes, I am even if it’s not obvious!).

Some of my friends call me an addict…addicted to coffee, extra joss, reading, pink, blogging, boxing and travels. Yes, i am addicted to work too but more so in having fun. i always make sure that i work hard and play harder.

I dream of becoming a backpacker someday. I want to see places and experience different cultures.

I am passionate and adventurous. I take chances. I seize the day and live life to the fullest.

my favorites...

mama. popsie. mints. tea. chocolates. coffee. blogging. friendster. mish. betz. yayee. lee (hehe!). work. extra joss. burlington. gatsby. eliel. mhello. dong.beck.baguio.beach.my gadgets. smelling the flowers. beads. chicken soup series. sleeping. wall climbing. cakes. may. mirror. why things are and why things aren't. youngblood. his hugs and kisses. via. kissh. my high school buddies. ym. pencils. shades. lipa. jez. ate. texting. quotes.

Dec 2005 Party..party..party

Our roaring 20s party where everyone dressed up for fun and for the clients ...feathers ...flappers ...accessories...

what does my birth date means...

hmmmm...let us see...

Your Birthdate: May 19

You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested.You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them.Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others.You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

resilient?...i agree
loner?...i am not
confident?...yes
suspicious?...not really...

what can i say?...the result is 50-50

Rice trivia...

- an average Filipino consumes 108 kgs of rice for the entire year...
- 29,000 tons of rice are consumed daily in the Philipines...
- 1 cup of cooked rice is roughly 50grms of uncooked rice...
- in the philippines, it is not a meal unless it has rice...a burger, no matter how filling, is a snack!...
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these are my new learnings in my preparation for an upcoming account pitch!

Torn...

My attachment to his family is breaking my heart…I may have accepted the fact that we are over…that things will not be better between us…that we can never be more than friends (even being friends is still a question)…but I haven’t accepted the idea that I am losing his family and some close relatives…I still cannot afford to stay away from the family I have learned to love…the family who have accepted me and loved me as one of them…it breaks my heart seeing nanay moved into tears when we discussed the possibility that I will not see them anymore, if not at least for quite a long time…I felt sadness thinking that I will no longer see Jekjek and Jez, his nephew and niece, grow up to a fine young man and woman considering that I have witnessed Jek’s tender years and all of Jez’s first…how can I even stay away from Ate Donna and Leah, the sisters I never had…I’m torn…I don’t know what to do…is it possible to stay away from him and not from them?...is it possible to move on and not to stay away from them?...how possible it is to see them…only them…without seeing him?...i’m torn…it breaks my heart…and no words can ever describe the pain…

Moving on...

I am moving on…

I am making a paradigm shift…

I am channeling my attention and focus to my career…

I am letting go of my love life and letting God handle it…

I will not try to act on it besides I do not have any control of the situation…

I have done my part…and really did my best…

I will not dwell on “what have been and what could have been”…

I believe that if it’s meant to be it gonna be…

I rest my case…

True Love

Love moves in mysterious ways…
…its ways are so mysterious and unpredictable that very often it left us surprise…happy…and even hurt and shattered
…but the very same ways that filled our life with hurts will lead us to our destiny – our one true love
…from then on these mysterious ways will shower our life with so much joy and fill our hearts with love
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The other night I received a wonderful news!...one of my closest friend is getting married…they have lost each other before and found each other again…I believe their story is worth writing…(I just hope my writing skills are good enough to capture their moments!)
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the girl…

Nitz was my roommate during my college days. She is pretty and smart but was too afraid of many things then…

the guy…

Gabs was a military cadet student when we met and through time we became friends. He is intelligent and idealistic…

Their meeting…( sometime in the early part of 1999)


Nitz was with me watching leah’s basketball match. Gabs was with the audience cheering for leah’s team. Leah and I introduced them.

Days after…

I would visit leah and gabs in the academy with nitz…
Gabs told us about his feelings towards nitz…
More visits with Nitz to the academy...
Girl talks with Nitz about Gabs ‘til dawn…
Gabs asking Leah about Nitz…

Their relationship…

I forgot how Gabs declared his feelings to Nitz..all I know is they were going steady before Gabs graduated from the academy in March 2000. A few months after, they broke up for some indifferences but got back together before the year ended…they were planning to get married then…Nitz was preparing the papers while Gabs was assigned in Mindanao…almost everything was set…then it happened…they had a big issue at hand and eventually broke up…their break-up was so painful for both of them that they haven’t communicated with each other for quite sometime…

2003…

in july of 2003, the oakwood news broke out...Gabs was one of the young officers...He was detained in a military camp since then...His mother immediately told Nitz the news and Nitz came to see him...their friendship bloomed...it was obvious that they are still in love but the trauma of what happened between them hinder them to get back to each other. Nitz continue to visit Gabs...and along the way...i believe their love deepen...

2004 - 2005...

Sometime in Feb or March, Nitz left the country to work in UAE...she left her promising job just to run away from all the feelings that she still has for Gabs...at that time she believed that if she is away she would be able to leave the past behind and move on to start a new life...a life without Gabs...but fate interfered in their lives...they are really destined for each other...i believe that they got back while Nitz is in UAE..(she never admitted nor denied their relationship to us)...they both realized that they can't live without each other...

Present...

Nitz might already be in town right now...excited to start a new phase of her life with Gabs...they will get married soon...it might even happened this weekend already...they will be married inside the camp where Gabs is being detained...with Gabs' mother, a Godparent and other detainees as witnesses to the ceremony...their wedding may not be their dream wedding but the moment is perfect...im very sure that they will be the happiest and most in love couple on that day!

i wonder ...

...why is it possible to hate and love you at the same time?
...why you hurt me when you said that you love me very much?
...why you found someone new to replace me in a very short period of time?
...if you really love her more than you love me?
...why i love your family so much and why they love me very much too?
...why it has to happen?
...why i'm still longing to be with you even though i know that i deserve someone better?
...why i love you so much despite...?
...why it can't be us again?
...what will happen next?
...if you will come back?
...if i still love you if ever you come back?
...if we are not really meant to be?

whats in my blog...

my feelings that i want to express but cant express (directly to the person involved..)
my thoughts that have been haunting me even in my dreams...
my experiences that moved my emotions...
my confusions and struggles in my journey...
...and of course the learnings and challenges that go with it.
stories of the people that have touched my life...
the blessings that God has given me...

Missing you…

Amidst my busy days I still find myself thinking of you …thinking of us….the memories of my life that I have shared with you….our meeting, our first date, our laughters and joys, the tears and obstacles that we’ve been through, the happy days with your family and relatives, and all the hurts…sometimes I see you…I can vividly describe your clothes, smell the scent of your favorite cologne and I can almost touch your face…there are times you’re behind a thick fog that I can only see your silhouette…

yes despite the busy days I’m thinking of you…wondering where you are and what you are doing…wondering if you’re also thinking of me…

(sigh!)…despite my busy days I’m thinking of you …simply because I miss you…

friendships never cease to warm the heart...

last sunday i had dinner (it was supposed to be a merienda sienna but because we waited for betchie for more than an hour then it became dinner) with mish and betchie, my childhood girl friends. we had the usual chats and the usual topic (for quite sometime already) - my so called lovelife!...and of course i got the usual reaction from true friends - the scolding! hehehe...but i was happy seeing them! Every time we're together it seems we haven't grown up...we still talk of the same topics 10 years ago (boys, make-ups, movies, accessories, in and out of fashion...well the latest addition are our careers) but with a different degree of maturity and of course with variations! there's one thing that changed...i cease to become the victim of their practical jokes! (baka nagpapahinga lang kayo lalo kana mish...i know u will read this!)...the last one they had was almost 2 years ago! (sana kasi si betchie naman ang victim!)

when mish got married i felt i am losing someone...i felt someone is taking away a big part of me...but i was wrong because when she got married our friendship was enriched...we see more of each other...we exchange text messages more often (lalo na nung may free text ang Globe...adik sya sa text!)...i need not worry about betchie...not until she finds the guy!

Mish and betchie are my confidante...they're always there at all times...im very bless having the 2 of them in my life...(even if i am usually incomplete when i headed home...usually a pair of earrings less!)

B Vitamins and Prayers...

i am currently studying and analyzing the functions of the B Vitamins for one of my accounts...well according to the documents that i have read...B Vitamins are group of 8 Vitamins (thiamin, riboflavin, pyridoxine, folic acid, cyanocobalamin, pantothenic acid and biotin) that are essential in the breakdown of carbohydrates into glucose which provides us energy, the breakdown of fats and proteins which aids normal functioning of the nervous system, muscle tone in the stomach, intestinal tract, healthy skin, hair and eyes...hence B Vitamins are important for the proper functioning of the body...in the course of my analysis and study of the B Vitamins i have realized that it works similar with prayers...the B vitamins are for the body while prayers are for the soul...prayers nourish our souls, it gives us perseverance to go on with life despite all the troubles...it gives us strength to overcome temptations and survive life's troubles...it paves the way for us to adore God...it gives us hope and deepens our faith every time we feel victims of the unfairness of others...through prayers God enlightens us and open our eyes to witness His great love for us! Indeed there is a connection between B vitamins and prayers!...

my work...my passion...

its friday and its almost 11pm and i'm still here in front of my desk full of cluttered papers...project lists...strat plan...among others...while my laptop is tucked in my bag with some documents to finish this weekend...don't get me wrong i'm not complaining...actually i am totally and madly in love with what i am doing!
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i never thought that i would fit in advertising... i have always thought that i will be an economist!...it never occurred to me that i will be an ad person (oh well...i don't know either how long will i be in this industry)...and i never thought in my wildest dream that i will have this burning passion and dedication with my work!!! when i was still Richard's executive assistant i used to tell my friends who are in the client service department that i will never work on weekends and i will not go home beyond 10pm during weekdays...then when i got what i wished (that is to be part of the client service group)...i work on weekends...experienced working more than 24 hours straight...worked not just beyond 8 hrs but sometimes more than 12 hours...experienced how it is to become my boss' flavor of the month ( every mistake seen...sometimes even if its not really your fault you still get the blame)...get frustrated from unsatisfied clients despite the hard work...but i dont mind at all...may be because i have instilled in me that this is what they called heroic client service...you die for your accounts...

you might be wondering what's there to enjoy in advertising?...well...here they are...you get to know many people...the chance to rub elbows with the celebrities...build the confidence to sell your ideas to the big boss of your accounts...the training of the experts...help build brands...not to mention that you get to see the fruits of your hard work on TV, newpapers and magazines... and hear it on the radio!!! there are so many things to love in advertising...and so many things to look forward to...every day is totally different from yesterday...and tomorrows are always unique than today!

busy days are here...

i've been working overtime since monday...(sigh!) and it seems like i will be working more than 12 hours every working day of february and might work on weekends too! (another sigh!)...i have to finish 3 sets of strategies, 7 timelines, 2 creative briefs, 3 media briefs and revise 3 proposals by tomorrow not to mention some other stuffs like follow ups...exciting righ?!...oh well...it has to be!!!...afterall im in the world of marketing and advertising!!!

advertising is not just about celebrities, events and glamour...most of the time its hard work...work...and work!

so for those who are wondering how glamorous it is in our world...come join us and check it out!!
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oh!...by the way...i forgot to mention that my client approved our storyboard already!...so i am pregnant with another TVC again! Watch out world for its birth!!