dampen spirit...

my energy level these past days is at its lowest point...it seems like no matter what effort i exert i still fall short of my standards (and of others i guess) and i am disappointed...

learnings...

looking back to the time that i have written "lost" i never thought back then that i will be really happy in a matter of months...i never imagined that i will feel complete and ready to love (maybe) again...my past relationship taught me a lot of things...i have learned to love and value myself more and demand from the entire world what is due to me...i have come to realize that i am attractive (though not attractive enough to become a model...hehehe) and intelligent enough to find a good catch...i don't have to settle with someone who couldn't treat me right and who couldn't love me with the kind of love i deserve...i don't have to shortchange myself...what happened to us was not my fault...maybe i just loved him so much that he has taken me forgranted or maybe he really doesn't loved me enough...i deserve someone better...someone like my crush! :)

Come what may means...

Lord, im taking the backseat please lead my way...

respite...

i want to take a break...a break from all the chaos of this world...away from the troubles of my heart...a retreat from all of my fears and axieties...a rest from the demands of my work...

i want to take a respite...an out of the country vacation even just for 3 days...

success...

most often than not success has nothing to do with money...i believe success comes when you are able to achieve your dreams with passion and in the process you have learned more, loved more. laughed more and embraced life more...

untitled...

i want to write about something but i just can't figure out what that something is...it seems like i can't organize my thoughts and come up with a good topic to write...maybe because my anxiety is at its peak these days...hmm...i want to take a break from all the project roll out preparation and BTL concepts that i have to come up and post something in my blog...my mind is so cluttered with so many things that i want to step back and recharge...however, my current workload doesn't permit a retreat...i wrote in my previous post that i will be very busy in February but at the rate things are going i will be very busy until October!...i wonder how the hell i could have a love life with this?!...

My mother asked me last saturday if i am currently dating someome...all i said was..."how i wish i am!"...she told me that she married my father at the age of 28 and gave birth at 29...my reading of what she told me...she's a bit worried that i'm turning 28, still single and pretty much unattached and not even dating! I proudly told her that i have a crush! ...then she commented crushes are for the teeners and relationships are for the adults...well, all i did was keep my mouth shut!...

I am enjoying my freedom...hanging out with friends 'til dawn without someone pestering me where i am and what time will i go home...spending weekends the way i want to...i do miss cuddling with someone...but i do believe the right man will come in God's perfect time...i just hope it might be soon and i hope its gonna be him...my crush!
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i still don't know what should be the title of this post...any idea?