random thoughts about life

i wonder why my life is complicated...or was it i who made it complicated??? Nah...i really don't know and i don't want to think about it...the more i think the more things become complicated. Maybe life doesnt need to be analyzed...maybe i just have to live it and enjoy it...but how i'm i suppose to enjoy life if i'm hurting and in pain?...(sigh!) i also dont know...maybe...i have to undergo the scourging before i can fully enjoy life or maybe God is telling me something (i just have to figure it out)...or maybe its destiny...i know i am strong...but why do i feel weak?...(sigh!) oh well...now im convinced i dont have to analyze life!